Be a Lightweight

What does it matter? How much does it weigh?

These are important questions to ask when we’re ruminating on situations, feelings, and emotions from things that have already happened (the past). What matters most is what matters to you now.

How much it matters determines how much it weighs on you. Heaviness can affect us physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Traumas and unaddressed issues are heavy. The refusal to take accountability is heavy. The need for my mother and my father—and my adult life—to address their demands so I can fight mine unblindfolded, is heavy.

But what is heavier is God’s presence.

There is a heaviness in my church when we sing “Excellent.” There is a weight in the moment of someone praying over another in tongues. There is a heaviness when you call on the name of Jesus out of desolation of the spirit, when no other words have the strength to rise to the lips. There is a heaviness when you stand still in the eye of the storm.

That heaviness matters most because it is perfect.

It gives me the ability to be weightless when God’s Holy Spirit is heavy. I can feel weightless, yet somehow the Spirit grounds me—like a balloon with a weight. Light, weightless, full of life (breath, air), yet anchored.

The Spirit is heavy, so that I can be light in darkness.